It was started on the 3rd of March where I felt that it was the worse week ever because I have never felt so much pain and nausea during the last couple months or years. I did not realize till a doctor told me I had a cold & fever. I skip college classes every other day or every 2 days during the first 2 weeks of March. I keep doing my things to do because I was just used to do that, and I thought it was just period cramps and fever perhaps. I wished I followed the doctor instruction to get a blood test once none of the medicines did not work, but I didn't.

In the last week of March, I only come to 1 class in a week. I figured out something is wrong with me. Then I go to the nearest hospital, 10 mins uber ride from Lotus House, the kosan where I live. I went straight to the emergency room, They gave me oxigen, told me I was 38.9 C, got my blood checked and I asked them if they would do typhoid test for me. They did the complete blood test and Widal Test.

Screw them.
They said i was okay.

10 hours after that, I saw my mom visited my kosan and telling me i gotta go to the hospital. I told her I did. But she told me I had to go again.

I went to Tzu Chi Hospital, near my house.
They figured out i had typhoid fever. Stayed there for a week, the doctor told me again, something was wrong. It was not just typhoid. I got my blood checked every other day. 6 injections , either for meds or blood test in a week, USG test.

I ended up skipping midterm exam and went back to college after one and a half month , back and forth between hospital, lab and my bedroom.

There she is, standing up fearless with her imperfectness,

still..

sharing the lights for the broken one(s).

They said,

Yes it does bring me happiness if I were able to reach it. It is a 2 am confession. I have been running away from everything recently, my responsibilities, my family, my hobbies, my friends and those people that I really trust that I usually share my thoughts with.

Freshman year has started, I came to my college classes. Some of them are so interesting, some are not really. I sorta feel that I am not belong here, in this place nor this situation.

I never thought I would end up here as an UI student. No, I am not saying there is something wrong with UI as the college I attend now. It's just there is something wrong with me. I want something different.

Hello folks!

Aside of all the chaos that happened because of this pre-college orientation thing. I am so happy that I am back to running!

Remember that line from Glee?! Run Joey Run sung by Lea Michelle. No, it's not that kind of run. I am literally running. Univeristy of Indonesia environtment is a fuckin awesome for running and doing excercise. The people are friendly, they also have bike path and also a path for the pedestrians and runners like me.

I run everyday in UI, either early morning or late night. Because I just love it. And guess what?! Couple weeks ago, I got my first medal in UI.

AND IT WAS A RUNNING MEDAL!

 for finishing the 5K Runtastic Run as the first 40 runners at Boulevard UI.

There is this 5K that held in UI to support the disabled people. I surprised that I was the first 40, that was the reason I got the medal. I did fall two times when I was running. My fingers were bleeding and also my leggings were teared on the knee, you couldn't really see it tho. But I was thinking that I gotta finish strong so I stood up and go running!
I haven't really do running since I have a back pain and a sacrum traumatic. Once the doctor told me He didn't sure about recommend me to run. But this medal cheer me up. Anyway im gotta kickass running again! Yo' El is back!